There are obstacles everywhere and it feels super defeating to keep running into the same one repeatedly. My persistent obstacle is letting my guard down and feeling comfortable enough with someone to show them who I really am. Everyone wants to be friends with Positive Patty, but not always Honest Hannah. When Serious Stacey comes out to play, people try and leave the playground.
No matter where you are in life, I think it is important to be honest with yourself. So, I am being honest with myself in saying that I am pushy and stubborn when it comes to improvement. I believe honesty is a form of love.
This doggedness in my personality, this constant drive to keep moving forward, making progress, getting better – I imagine, can be easily seen as criticism and judgment. Mistaken for inflexibility and lack of empathy. I am neither inflexible or unempathetic. I’m constantly making do with life circumstances and I tend to give people the benefit of the doubt. Just because I put aside the fluffy mask every once in a while to show the serious drive underneath does not make me heartless. It means I’m trying to get shit done.
The issue is we’ve become such a sensitive society that we only want to take on the good stuff – not the bad. Good vibes only, right? Wrong. It’s the obstacles that help us grow into (hopefully) better people. It’s the criticism that gets us to change gears. It’s having someone call us on our bullshit every once in a while. Those obstacles, those problems? They’re opportunities to learn and grow – to learn to do better. We do not improve by receiving praise only; there is no motivation from that to continue to work hard.
I accept myself for who I am and I accept that others won’t always vibe with that. That’s okay – the right people will and do. That is what I wish for you, reader, as well. Be authentic.
This vase (which is upside down for painting purposes) is my latest work in progress. I’m having a lot of fun exploring the process of this. I may not ever sell a single thing – as much as I’d love to – but not everyone embraces the same weird I do. It may take a while to find my niche in the Etsy market. It’s no different than finding your place in real life, but I think the best way to find that place is to just be you.
——->A link to my Etsy shop: https://www.etsy.com/shop/WeirdGlassArtStudio